My 1 Day Vegan Experiment – And Why I’ll Never Do it Again

Happy Friday!

I can’t say that this week was too hard for me, seeing as it was only three days long thanks to teacher’s convention, but it’s still nice to see Friday roll around. Annnd, thanks to the fact that I still have two more days after today to tackle my to-do list…


The reason being that today has a lovely forecast of MINUS THIRTY SIX DEGREES CELSIUS. (-33F). It’s safe to say I am not leaving my house. This isn’t the worst its gotten in my city, but its the worst its been in a loooong while, especially considering a good chunk of our January was wonderfully spring-like. Speaking of wonderful:

To every single person who commented on my post yesterday, thank you. Congratulations on my exams, compliments and encouragement…they all mean so much to me! Thank you for taking the time to brighten my day. 🙂 

Annnd, back to the title I am sure you are all wondering about! I wanted to post this today, seeing as it is still National Eating Disorders Awareness Week. Now, I am by no means saying that all/the majority of vegans deal with disordered eating. The truth of the matter is, though, it seems to be a very convenient excuse for many that are struggling to go without food. I know I tried to use it – “I would love to eat that cupcake/pizza/homemade meal/99% of food offered, but I’m a vegan. Sorry!” I never actually was a vegan – it was simply an occasionally used technique to cover up why I didn’t want food.

Now, I am far, far beyond not wanting to eat – you should see the amount I can pack away these days – but the idea of veganism had been on my radar for quite some time. I’m not sure why, seeing as I had, and still have, absolutely zero desire to become a vegan. I simply wanted to give it a shot.

Spoiler: I lasted until 4pm.

Although I ate a lot of food, it was nowhere near satisfying and I felt miserable almost all day long. I was hungry immediately after breakfast, which was Silver Hills The Big 16 toast and hummus. I thought I was being smart and including proteins, fats, and carbs. Less than ten minutes after finishing my breakfast, I was munching on almonds, an apple with peanut butter, and a muffin.


These were still delicious, though.

I was snacking so much that I didn’t even end up eating lunch – I just ate more hummus with carrots, toast, chickpeas, etc.  I probably ate two cups of carrots just to get some semblance of feeling full!


I went out to the mall in the afternoon, and felt like a shadow of myself. I was sitting down while my friends were looking at clothes – I just wanted to curl up and go to sleep! I was so so tired, I couldn’t believe it. I ate a Simply bar while we were there, and when I got home I just completely snapped.

I went for ALL the chicken and yogurt I could get my hands on, and then followed it up with the best latte I’ve ever tasted. And guess what? I immediately felt better. The fog began to lift, and I actually became a normal human being again.


I’m not sure why my vegan experiment was such a failure, to be perfectly honest. No, I didn’t have a legitimate “lunch”, but my breakfast and snacks all contained a solid amount of protein, carbs, fats, and, though I didn’t count them, calories as well.

Regardless of the why, it certainly did not work out for me and I have zero desire to feel that way again. I love my turkey and cheese paninis, my chicken, my american mistos in the morning and my yogurt bowls. ALL the yogurt.


I have a lot of respect for vegans and plant-based eaters for all that they do for the environment. Not eating animal products does dramatically cut down on emissions, not to mention reduces animal cruelty. And for those who feel fantastic while doing it, power to you! It’s just something that didn’t work for me.

So although my experiment was not a success (far from it), I have no regrets. “Vegan” kept nagging at me every time I saw a plant-based meal/post/pin, and now it is no more.

I will have my meat and eat it too, thank you. 🙂


Have you ever tried/considered plant-based eating? 


Thinking Out Loud.

Good morning everyone! I absolutely love Amanda’s idea to make our Thinking Out Loud posts about body image/recovery/personal thoughts.

These thoughts are still random (it is TOL, after all!) but are sort of a compilation of how I’m feeling lately about health in general.
1. I feel like I’m starting to get my confidence back. I (FINALLY) got my exam results back, and I did a thousand times better than I expected. My marks shot up, and all my hard work really paid off. It is such a good reassurance that I actually am intelligent and deserve success.
toronto university
You know, I WILL get into university. 
2. And I’m rediscovering my passions. It seems to be such a common occurrence that people who struggle with a disorder – whether it involves eating, drinking, personality, or something else – lose themselves in it. When my entire life was devoted to food, there was no chance I was curling up on the couch with a book. But reading and writing is such an inherent part of who I am that I cannot believe I went without it for so long. And I’m so thankful to have it back.
3. I wish we could all feel beautiful. As cheesy as it sounds, I honestly wish from the bottom of my heart that every single girl and boy could feel good about themselves. There is no one that shouldn’t be able to look in the mirror and feel good about what they see, and what they don’t. There are infinite types of “beautiful” and we are all one of them – we just have to find it. The amount of criticism and comparison that goes on is just obscene and makes me sick.
4. My school has a “Smile ‘Cause You’re Beautiful” campaign that I absolutely love. It encourages girls to go without makeup for a week to embrace our inner beauty. I’m part of the team that organizes it, and we write inspirational quotes all over windows and mirrors, and promote self-love. It’s such an important quality and I wish it was easier than it sounds.
5. Trust is a challenge – It’s SO hard to trust yourself. Just this past Tuesday I had such an internal struggle over whether or not to eat a Luna bar. It sounds so stupid, but I had just eaten a huge lunch and was still hungry, but didn’t know why. I couldn’t even focus on my homework! But I couldn’t trust my hunger signals enough to eat it.
Until I did. 🙂 My point is, though, trust is such an important concept when it comes to health. We need to trust ourselves, our bodies, and our family and friends that want the best for us.
6. I wish exercise was just about “feeling good”. But it’s not, and I don’t know if it ever will be. In fact, I don’t think there’s a human being on the planet that exercises and has absolutely zero regard for what they look like. There are some people who care more than others, of course, but in my opinion our society is so dependant on physical beauty that it is simply inescapable.
7. That being said, I love that exercise can also motivate us to focus on more than what meets the eye. I’m not saying that you should EVER feel the need to justify how you look, but I know that I’ve been able to ignore my legs and stomach a little more when I run a personal best 10k. So whether its running, weight lifting, martial art or canoeing (?) finding an activity that allows you to treasure and thank your body is, in my opinion, an amazing way to let go of some body-image attachments.
8. Running is my lifeline right now. I’m struggling under the pressure of school, getting into university, and am beyond ready to finish high school and start my life. Having that goal of a half marathon is all that’s keeping me motivated. But to properly train for that race, staying healthy is essential. I can’t succumb to self destructive thoughts that try to tell me I don’t need something – whether that is food, rest, pampering, or even time with a book.
I DESERVE to be happy and healthy, and so I will be. And so do you.  ❤
No questions today – tell me something on your mind this week.

Then + Now. [WIAW}

Good morning world!

I haven’t talked about it yet, but this week is National Eating Disorders Awareness Week.


I’ve said it before – though I did not have a full-blown eating disorder, I struggled with severe disordered eating for a good four years of my life. But before that, I actually had a normal relationship with food. So for today’s What I Ate Wednesday hosted by the lovely Jenn, I decided to do a “Then vs. Now” version, of what I ate before and after my life was twisted into a food warp. (Note: I’m not posting what I ate during my disordered period.)

Then, I ate what I wanted, without regard for health and macronutrients. The details from grade seven (5 years ago) are a little fuzzy, but I know that I ate relatively well-ish, with plenty of room for a teenager-appropriate amount of snacks.

Then, I refilled my bowl of cereal as many times as I wanted. I did not measure a serving, and I did not compensate a big breakfast for no morning snack/less carbs during the day/etc. I don’t even think the words “big breakfast” would have crossed my mind back then. I was hungry, so I ate until I wasn’t. That was the end.

Now, I try to eat balanced meals and snacks. Though I don’t track my macronutrients, I aim to get them all in most of the times I eat. I definitely don’t deny myself food, but if I have a large breakfast I sometimes find myself doubting whether or not I “should” have my morning snack, even if I’m hungry. Don’t worry, I always do! The thoughts are there, though.


Then, lunch was one of the best parts of the day! Maybe I would get taquitos from the school canteen, or maybe I would eat a wrap my mom made me. I rarely knew exactly what was in my food, and if I did, I wouldn’t have cared! Lunch was a time to socialize, relax, and take a break from the morning’s classes.

Now, I make my own food. I make myself a healthy, nutritious, substantial meal, but I still always do it myself. It might be a little bit about control at this point, but I truly feel as though I’m beyond that.


Then, spontaneous snacking was a fun part of my day that only occupied that part of my day. What I mean by this is that if someone randomly brought cookies into class, I would have one or two, enjoy them, and then not think about them again. Or if I was out with friends and we stopped by a cafe, I would of course get a treat.


Now, I plan more. I don’t plan meals, but I do make sure that I have snacks to eat with me at work, and organize my meals so that I’m never starving. This means that if someone brings in Tirimisu or the like into work (which did happen) I won’t want it. I’ll go back and forth over eating it in the span of 30 seconds, and either try to toss it discretely or spend the next however many hours of my shift justifying why I ate it. Now, I haven’t had an experience like that over the past ~ month when I seriously overhauled my eating (for the better! = more). I’m mainly referring to the majority of my experiences.

Then, dinner was whatever my mom made. I rarely knew what we were having until she started cooking, and I definitely did not plan my day’s meals around it. On the days I did know, though, I looked forward to macaroni and cheese or waffles with syrup – and dreaded salad.

Now, dinners are planned by my mom and I together. This absolutely has to do with the fact that I am now seventeen, not twelve. But I also just don’t have that lack of regard for food that I did before. We make sure we have nutritious, healthy dinners, but I care about what we eat now.


Then, dessert sometimes happened, and sometimes didn’t. If we had Callebaut (the best) chocolate in the house, we all might have some one night after dinner (with me begging for a bigger piece). It didn’t happen every night but it happened whenever we felt like it.

Now, dessert feels like a nessecity to me (but it’s not actually dessert). For some reason, I always feel like snacking right after dinner, regardless of how hungry I am. As soon as I finish my plate my mind goes to “Toast? Apple + nut butter? Carrots?” It’s some strange psychological attachment I have to evening snacking that simply wasn’t there before, because I was far more intuitive.

All in all, although my eating is a thousand times better now that it has been for years, my relationship with food was far better then than it is now. I may not have been the healthiest, but I was intuitive and most importantly happy. 

How has your relationship with food changed? 

Half Marathon Nutrition & Recovery Plan

Here it is!

The post that I have been jabbering away about has finally arrived!

I need to preface this with the (obvious) disclaimer that I am not a dietitian or personal trainer! It would be preeeetty darn impressive for a girl to have gotten a four-year bachelor’s degree PLUS a master’s by seventeen, no?


As much as I would like to say I started university at age twelve, I believe I have to graduate from high school first. Which sort of requires the RESULTS FROM MY DIPLOMA EXAMS !

I’m sorry. Can you tell I’m a little worked up about still not knowing?

Anyway, moving on, moving on. Yet another thing I’ve been talking about nonstop is how necessary it is for me to prevent injuries during this training season. I am working towards two very different races, and will be spending a ton of time on my feet. It would be extremely easy to overtrain without even noticing it, and then BAM, there go my knees.

So I’ve been making plan after plan after plan to stay healthy, and here’s what I have ultimately come up with:


Goal #1: Eat a LOT. Clearly there is more to it than this, but this is the starting point. Base mileage starting at 20+ miles per week = necessary extra fuel. Now, I’m sure this comes as no surprise. I do have a few tricks up my sleeve, however, to ensure that I eat a lot of good, quality nutrients and not chocolate and sugar. Because I have been known to do that recently (oops).

oats Bottomless bowl of oatmeal with chia seeds, an egg, pumpkin, banana, blueberries and almond butter. 

  • 3 meals & 3 snacks: Although my trip to the dietition last summer was largely unhelpful, this little tidbit was a good one. As long as I am eating three balanced meals and three balanced snacks, counting calories is unnecessary. Now, what does “balanced” mean, you ask? There is more to it than just the three macronutrients, although those are key. It’s important to also take into account micronutrients such as iron and potassium. There are of course other important things, like fibre, calcium and sodium, but I naturally gravitate towards high-fibre foods such as apples and carrots,


and my love of greek yogurt and lattes never fails to aid my calcium consumption. Basically, my plan of action is to ensure that each meal contains a relatively balanced (we aren’t going all IIYFM crazy over here) amount of HEALTHY carbohydrates, proteins, and fats, along with some iron and potassium. Each snack needs to have some protein and ideally some whole grains/healthy carbs, but I’m not obsessing. If I’m dying for an apple the size of a child’s head or, conversely, an ice cream cone the size of my head, that will be what occurs. The main plan is simply three meals and three snacks, balanced 80% of the time. 

  • Pre-workout + post-workout snacks PLUS a meal. Now, I’m not saying I am going to have my three meals, three snacks AND two snacks around my workouts/runs. What I am saying, however, is that a meal does not get to double as my post-workout nutrition. I am extremely guilty of eating breakfast, doing a hard workout, eating lunch and then wondering why I’m starving the rest of the day. I’m not even hungry when I eat lunch right after a tough run, but I do it anyway because I know how important post-workout nutrition is. HOWEVER, it makes way more sense to drink a smoothie or glass of milk immediately after I finish exercising, and then enjoy my meal when I am actually hungry.


Goal #2: Maximize performance. Now, like I’ve said, I do not have an overly ambitious goal for this half marathon. Mainly, I want to finish. Knowing myself, though, that was a given the moment I signed up and the moment I cross the start line. Giving up is not an option for me. Ideally, though, that finish time will be under two hours. Again, not overly ambitious. I can do a comfortable 10k at around an 8:30 pace, and I just need to keep my pace under 9 minute miles to finish sub-2. I do want to ensure that the foods I’m eating help me get the most out of my training, though.

  • Pre-workout nutrition: As I said above, this is going to be essential. I’m going to aim to do my long runs at 7am, since that is when the race is, and before runs up to 6 miles I plan to eat a banana ~30 minutes before running. Once I go longer, I am going to try out two options:

a) Increase my snack so that I have a good mix of carbs + proteins (banana + nut butter, toast + nut butter, fruit + yogurt, etc.)

b) Wake up at ~5:30 and eat a small breakfast: apple + nut butter and a glass of 1% milk (this is what I have been eating one hour before track practice!

latteSometimes I bribe myself to go to practice with a latte before getting on the bus.

  • Post-workout nutrition: I’m thinking a smoothie is my best bet here. I can throw a banana, nut butter, chia seeds, and some milk into a blender and call it good for a while. Easy on the stomach but full of nutrients. Like I said, I’ve been forcing myself to eat right after runs – aka chewing solid food is not very appetizing to me immediately after exercising. I also don’t love the idea of sugar-filled chocolate milk. Then, whenever I get hungry, I will eat a balanced meal in accordance with the above!
  • Track practice: This one is a little different since everything has to be portable. One hour before track I like to have a huge apple, some nut butter and 1 cup of 1% milk in the form of two american mistos. Easy peasy. It’s the snack after running that has been posing a challenge. I’ve tried everything from almonds + raisins to a frozen smoothie (fail) to bars, both homemade and prepackaged. Since eating right after running is pretty unappetizing to me, my favourites have been homemade bars and my Cookie Dough Bites. Amanda’s Protein Granola Bars have been a saving grace as well!


Goal #3: STAY HEALTHY. This is really goal #1 but it’s down here for organization’s sake. Do not mess with my anal retentiveness. Preventing injuries will remain a priority and I will be doing this BY… (drumroll please.)

  • Fifteen minutes of foam rolling + stretching after EVERY RUN. Yep. Even those little easy peasy 3 mile runs on the ‘mill get the red-carpet treatment. I always notice WAY reduced soreness when I do this after a run, so even if it means waking up at an ungodly hour, this needs to happen on the regular.
  • Icing after long runs. I know for a fact that this helps my knees, and so plan to do this at least once a week after my weekend long runs. I’m thinking it will be about 15 minutes.
  • Proper warmup + cooldown. I should be shot. I NEVER do this. EVER. I literally go from a standstill to sprinting at 9+mph, and running so fast I’m about to fall off the treadmill to laying on the ground. It’s beyond bad and something I really need to work on. I always get in the mindset of: I’m tired and don’t feel like running extra. But in reality, spending 5-10 minutes progressively increasing/decreasing speed at the beginning and end of a run, progressively, will pay off in gold.
  • Regular strength training. I have a minimum of 2 full-body circuit training sessions per week, but ideally I will get three. They won’t be intense, hour-long cardio-filled ones. They will very likely be 20-30 minute circuits done with our 10lb dumbbells in my bedroom. Since I will be running so much, I want them to be relatively low-intensity but help me to build necessary strength and stability!

heads shoulders knees and toesI love this one because you can modify it according to how hard you want to work out. 

WOW was this ever a novel. I did promise a detailed post, though, and didn’t want to leave anything out! A post saying “Eat a lot and stretch” would have been remarkably unhelpful and, in my opinion, useless. So I really hope that you found this interesting and valuable!

#1 tip to stay healthy during training? 

Currently: February 2014

Happy Monday!

Annnnd, here we go again. Can someone tell me how time managed to squeeze two days into approximately 0.4 seconds? Because that’s how fast this weekend went by.


I definitely can’t complain, though – I have Thursday and Friday off this week thanks to teacher’s convention. Although, who’s with me in the fact that this week will still feel long? Thursday and Friday are the shortest days to me, with Monday to Wednesday always seeming to last forever. And ever and ever and ever. 

Ah, well, such is life. I’m sure I’ll live until tomorrow to tell the tale. I’m sort of craving a Thinking Out Loud post right now, but seeing as I have to wait aaaaallll the way until Thursday for that fun, let’s do a Currently post instead!

Current Addiction

Reading! On Thursday I just sort of snapped at the idea of wasting my life away on my phone, and have been a reading machine. I finished Allegiant, started and finished a random 200 page novel, and am currently halfway through The Cuckoo’s Calling. I’m loving it! I’m beyond behind on my goal to read 100 books in 2014, but I’m catching up!

Current Excitement 

I had my nose a little too far in a book this morning to watch the game (at 5am on a Sunday morning, yes) but I still could not be happier for Canada! We won olympic gold in hockey against Sweden yesterday, and I am SO proud to be Canadian. I honestly think that it is simply a given that we will win gold in hockey (for both men AND women, mind you!). We have had either our men or women win every winter olympics since 2002, and both teams won in Vancouver 2010 AND Sochi 2014.

Current Bane of My Existence

WHERE ARE MY DIPLOMA MARKS? As I told you on Thursday, I ran over to City Hall to give them a piece of my mind when my marks weren’t in the mail Friday afternoon.

Okay, so maybe I didn’t. But I’m going out of my mind! Not only do I still not know my final grades, I can’t send in my official transcripts to one of the universities I’m applying to by the scholarship deadline. ARGH I am so annoyed. I’m trying to stay positive, though, and just hope that they understand! 


Current Adoration

My panini press! I have been putting just about everything into this baby and she makes them so much better. Also, it turns out that if you don’t check your sandwich every 15 seconds, it cooks a thousand times faster! Who would have thought?

Current Repugnance (love that word!)

Downton Abbey. I’m sorry, people, but I just can’t do it. I have tried watching the first three episodes and it never fails to make me want to be dead fifteen minutes in. I wish I could love it just so that I could watch Maggie Smith, but even she doesn’t save the show for me. Truthfully, though, I’m kind of over TV in general. Lately it’s just been making me feel lethargic and brain-dead.

maggie smithLet’s be honest here, rules don’t apply to Maggie Smith.

Current Question

Who in their right mind would come up with the Hypothermic Half Marathon? Holy man alive I thought I was a crazy for planning to train in this weather, but apparently there were people nuts enough to casually run 131. miles yesterday, which had a casual low of -31 DEGREES CELSIUS (-24F). Don’t get me wrong, I have so much respect for those brave souls, it’s just…ouch. 


What’s the coldest weather you’ve ever run in?

-15. And I call myself Canadian.

The Real & Official Spring Training Plan

Welcome to my Half Marathon Training Plan version 2.0!

I’m now actually calling it my “Spring Training Plan” since I am training for both 13.1 miles and 0.2 miles. 🙂

Although I was basically in love with my first half marathon training plan, the realization that I am also training for track and field kind of shot it in the head. I honestly cannot fathom how I could put together that entire plan, completely forgetting that I was obligated to be running at school at least Tuesdays and Thursdays from 8:00am-8:45am. 



Alas and alac, I’m still registered for my half marathon on June 1, but now also have some sprinting on my calendar for the middle of March! I haven’t quite decided yet if I am going to do 800m and 200m, or just the latter. I’ve always been a middle distance runner in the track world and am sort of in love with the sick pain it gives me, so I’m not sure if I’m ready to give that up. But I also don’t want to overload myself. Decisions, decisions.

But my decisions (or lack thereof) are not what you care about! You just care about how on earth I intend to prepare myself to run almost twice the distance I have ever ran in my seventeen and a half years of existence. Yes, the half counts.

As of now, this is what we are looking at. Although, knowing me, I could very well wake up tomorrow morning and realize that I registered for an ultra marathon in my sleep and have to change everything all over again.


On my last plan, I definitely said that I chose Hal Higdon’s beginner plan for a reason and that reason (I may be an experienced runner, but I am a total distance newbie) is still 100% valid. HOWEVER, the beginner plan has no speed work on it, and I will be doing that at track practice twice a week. So I am now following Hal’s Intermediate plan, and substituting his speed work days for my practice days.This makes things infinitely more simple than attempting to compensate for extra effort by changing easy runs around or eliminating them and essentially ruining the plan. I also won’t deny that I like the long runs starting at 5 miles, because that is my own benchmark for long runs.

All I changed other than the speed work was:

  • Rest days on Saturdays instead of Fridays: I work Saturdays (not Sundays anymore – woohoo!) and have come to love my morning routine of being lazy until ~9am and then getting a ton of work done before heading over to the cafe. Not interested in changing that!
  • Switch Tuesday runs to Fridays: I have track on Tuesdays and ideally don’t want to run more than 2 back-to-back days!
  • Eliminate the short run + strength: I added in my circuit training on Wednesdays and just scrapped the short run.

I’m also just going to be doing fast runs on the days he suggests racing, since winter races are far and few between up in the arctic tundra. I’m super happy with how this is shaping up! I would absolutely love to follow a half-marathon training plan to the letter, but it’s just not feasible with my schedule right now. We do what we can, right?

Have you altered a training plan?

Any experience/advice for training for multiple distances? 

Say What You Think & Think What You Say

Or, just Think Out Loud and make everyone’s lives a lot easier. 😉

Is it seriously Thursday already? I honestly feel like it was just yesterday that I was telling you about my love for this day. I suppose long weekends will do that to you, though. Sometimes they make the week feel like a thouuuusand years, but other times they make the days fly by! This one was the latter, luckily.

Thanks to Amanda for hosting the ever-wonderful link party!


1. They say patience is a virtue…But DAMN is it hard! I wrote my first diploma exam on January 14, and I STILL do not have the results back. The government told us we would likely get our marks in the mail by the third week in February, so they have one more day to redeem themselves. Actually, scratch that. Redemption is impossible after making two hours constitute 50% of university admissions grades. They have one more day until I lose my mind and sprint over to city hall and give them a piece of my mind.


2. My love for Jillian is waning. I used to be OBSESSED with her. Like, 13 year old girl Justin Bieber obsessed. I had legitimate heart palpitations when I saw her live show last ~April ish. Recently, though, I’ve been listening to her podcasts and they are irritating me more than they are making me happy. She thinks that counting calories is the ONLY way to be healthy and recommends 1200 calorie diets to callers while barely knowing their height and weight. It makes me sad because I used to think she was such an inspirational woman.

3. So is my love for gum! One thing Jillian HAS gotten through my head is the consequences of chemicals. I’m not eating everything organic yet, but I’ve been realizing the disgusting amount of chemicals in some of the things I eat very regularly, gum being one of them. I wouldn’t say I’m chewing less yet, but I’m not enjoying it as much so it’s definitely a start! Read the ingredients on yours. YUCK.

4. Instagram is a black hole. I thought by not having Tumblr or Facebook, I was saving myself from hours spent browsing social media. FALSE. Instagram and Pinterest have sucked. me. in. I need an intervention, STAT.

oats Let’s be honest, though, Instagram is the only thing that makes my meals look palatable. 

5. Does anyone understand the Apple/Google Relationship? Because I sure don’t. I remember in the iPhone’s early days, Google was the default search engine and YouTube was an app on the home screen. And then, all of a sudden, I was using Yahoo (barf) and YouTube was nowhere to be found! I know now they are huge competitors (uh, who hasn’t had the Android/iPhone argument?) but when did they switch from partners to rivals?

6. Barney Butter. I heard about it for so long, bought two single serving packets to test it out, and then promptly forgot about them in the back of my cupboard since summertime. I ran out of almond butter the other day, and decided to test one out! Then I read the ingredients list: almonds, evaporated cane juice, palm oil, sea salt. Can you say YUCK? What happened to just nuts? I threw them out immediately – I know it’s not as bad as the hydrogenated crap in normal peanut butter, but I’m still grossed out by any weird ingredients. So my toast topper this morning was of the peanut variety, which, is never a bad thing anyway. 😉



7. I’m having a quarter-life crisis. I’ve gone through SO many phases about what I want to do with my life. I’ve literally gone from surgeon to lawyer to physiotherapist in a week. I’ve been set on working in publishing/communications for several months, but now I’m rethinking it. I am not willing to spend four years getting a degree and then managing Superstore. But it seems like all bachelors degrees are basically useless nowadays, and I’m not interested in 12 years of biology. WHAT DO I DO WITH MY LIFE?!

8. I am so not a normal teenager. We did know this already (hello, health nut with a grandma bedtime), but the events on February the 14th confirmed that even more. I don’t have a boyfriend (because boys have cooties) so my mom and I went shopping after school. 🙂 We bought a panini press and decided that it was my Valentine’s Day present. And I am THRILLED. I’ve been making paninis in the waffle maker, but this one gives sandwiches the nice lines AND has reversible plates so I can cook eggs and pancakes on it too! I am waaaay too excited about this but I cannot contain it. I was originally also super excited about bringing it to university (dining hall food, no thank you) but then my coworker brought up the point that it might not be allowed. Any thoughts?

9. Wouldn’t you rather be outside?

outdoor-ellipticalI have no words.

10. I have a hole in my heart. A MASSIVE one. I haven’t baked in months. did make some granola the other week,


but what I really need in my life are some homemade muffins. I couldn’t even tell you the last time those happened around here. So I think I will leave you now, and go fill that void with sugar. 🙂


Barney butter – thoughts? 

Did you/do you know what you wanted to do with your life at 18?